The Beginning

My first day, in the post graduate course. My first day, in a Christian college. My first day, in the direction I have decided to go in. My first day, in the institute where I have earned my seat on account of good self-representation.

There is an inexplicable high of energy flowing through me as I write this account. I entered Xviers with absolutely no anxiety but an equivalent amount of thrill and determination to go ahead and make my mark in the field I have chosen. I shall spare the rant about how advertising is my dream. What was or rather is important to me is that I felt redeemed today. It used to send depressing waves down my spine and into my stomach, the thought of all my pears having finished post graduation or are in the last year of PG from kickass colleges around the country and many of them happily placed with large MNCs. Some, so deep into business, that they failed to figure as pears. Some married off. Some about to be. Being stuck trying to attain a degree for five years non-stop is no laughing matter I tell you. Lesser, the fact, that I jumped fields like Tarzan jumped trees. And not to mention the colleges. But it’s all good now. I felt like a grown up all of a sudden this evening as I sat there listening to the Father speak in impeccably propah English. The English was an added bonus, for no exception to the fact that each one spoke like they were Brits born in India. The coordinator then took our batch of 60 (pronounced Six-tie… I love it) to our classroom and addressed us as ‘the crème de la crème’ for we were 60 out of the 400 odd who made it through three, stringent processes of filtration. There were moments of complete fear as they spoke about the kind of project work and time dedication that the course would demand, but those were minor details. The penalties scared me out of my wits (for missing deadlines and remaining absent etc.) but as I said, mere details. Nothing comes for free and nothing comes for pure, unadulterated frolic.

I stand here and now,
With eyes smiling and tears shining,
Looking into the sky in an endless glance
And capturing each passing cloud and making it shower its blessings
For I am a happy man today.
I have come to achieve the pleasure of being amongst those who belong here with me.
To reckon my fate with the souls who are thinking the same thought as I.
I wait and run all at the same time.
I know it is here and now for I can hear the call of calm.
The time …to stop running around and start running ahead.
…To stop looking for direction and start looking into one.
…To stop asking for help and start preparing to help myself.
…To stop worrying about unknown perils and to start taking them up as challenge.
I am here now.
I am going to be there, then.
I know I am moving and this time I know where.
And I thank the lord,
As I stare up in the sky.
In an endless glance.
I have arrived…