Saturday, January 13, 2007

Condition Zero - the mind game

The times when you want to return to that one state of mind that is ‘state of zero’ for all good reasons, are simply those times when you never want to turn around and ask yourself how you got to it in the first place.

Allow me to explain… Once in a way (invariably when you are alone and never want to be otherwise) your mind finds this one niche that is so peaceful, that you don’t want to move away. Maybe you might even feel a smile but that is the beauty of it… you never want to see it; just feel it.

For the irony, we have a simple sound of the earth calling you back; maybe just that message on your cell phone from a bank offering you credit cards at no additional cost; it brings you back, never-the-less. So here you are trying to run from everything that was ever taught to you and it’s the same ‘enemy’ that can pull you right back into itself, with the slightest whisper.

I guess I found one song that came close to that feeling. In terms of music, it is the only song that can take me there and then I discovered the lyrics… a little difficult to understand at first but the absolute pleasure lies in relating to it.

For your reading pleasure:

Angel (Sarah McLaughlin)

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here.

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

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